April 14th, Honolulu: I wake up needing to urinate horribly, but I’m still so tired I just lie there for a while wondering if perhaps I can just fall back asleep for a while and let it be. I couldn’t fall asleep until somewhere around 4am last
night, even though I tried to get to sleep at 2am. That just happens some nights, and it’s been like that for a long time. The best explanation as for why is that my brain won’t shut up, won’t stop bombarding me with thoughts and things to
consider. I’ve found the best way to slow it down is to write, to put all my thoughts in a place where I know they’re permanent and can’t be forgotten but no longer need my attention. That or get high so I can’t think anymore. I wrote nearly ...
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