So my wife and kid are gone for the weekend and I'm baching it. i really don't have anything planned except for a golf tourney tomorrow am and poker the rest of the time. i'm planning on grinding pretty hard.

Poker has been a roller coaster ride again....I did it to myself though. I'm technically winning for July, but i needed to make a withdraw for an emergency bill so i left myself right at my min, BI's wise...the next session proceeded to be horrible and i dropped 3 BI in like 100 hands. So i was in shock a little bit just sitting there under rolled for the first time in since i can remember... So I've just been playing pretty conservative and not been doing anything really stupid or making many plays just to get the confidence up and the BR especially...so hopefully i can grind out some profits this weekend, i just need to be patient and realize that it's about the long run.

I've been thinking about strat lately, and I've really started to think about blind stealing...I'm re- reading NLHE T&P, and i read his section that while it's importantish it's not necessary. So I've decided to not steal quite as light as i have been and see where that gets me...thoughts?

Well have a good weekend everyone.

what's up everyone. I'm super excited about a much deserved 3 day weekend. The best part about it is I didn't even know until last Friday that I was getting one...My boss never said anything about it and I just assumed it would be business as usual and it was just bad luck that the 4th fell on a Saturday this month, but I was just informed that we do indeed get it off...hells ya

So I'm planning on getting up earlier than work time and going golfing..WTF, it's funny how much I hate getting out of bed in the morning to go to work, but give me the chance to go golf and I'll wake up even earlier...It's gunna be a nice day so it will definitely be a fun day. Now here's to hoping I don't hack it around and can muster up a dec round, but it will be fun none the less.

Poker has been going a lot better. I finally realized I just wasn't paying any attention to the hands, my decisions, or really anything that was poker related. Which needless to say is way no bueno. So I've really started to just hyper-focus (ty SS) and things are starting to get a little more like normal. Which is just in time since I have to put in about 10k hands more than normal this month to make the mid-year bonus...but it will be well worth it since the BR will be replenished and I can start actually making some withdraws...

Have a fabulous Friday everyone.

I can't even take it anymore. This is getting unreal. I don't even know what to do anymore. May and June are officially losing months, which I can't stand. I know that in poker you will never win all the time or even close to it, but this is driving me crazy.

This losing streak is causing me serious stress both financially and mentally. I don't even know wtf to do anymore. I'm to the point where I feel like I don't even know how to play poker anymore. I looked over the sessions, and there are a few hands where they just had the top of their range, a few coolers, and a few I just played like a jackass...

I just don't even know where to go from here. I'm clueless. I play poker to make money and atm I'm not doing that, and it is causing me an extremely large amount of unnecessary frustration and stress, which I don't need atm...

The worst part about all this is that my BR has shrunk drastically. I still have 30 BI but, i used to have 40-50, and since July is the month to clear my mid-year bonus which i desperately need to help bump my BR back up, I have to play a shit ton in July...like I said before I'm going to take the next two days off and then start grinding July 1...

I think this is the first real losing streak I've had online. Two months of frustration is not fun. I'm sure some of you will read this and be like "buck up it's only 40K hands" but this is causing my life stress that I don't need or want...man I hate $!!!

later all, have a good Sunday.

Sup everyone. Hope your all having a good Saturday so far.

So I'm currently still on a bit of a downswing. My last four sessions I've basically broke even, but it's really been odd. I'm usually pretty consistent and don't do anything too stupid, but lately I either play really good (up 6 BI in two sessions) or really really horrible (down 6 BI in the other two sessions...).

So I'm planning to play tomorrow and then take the rest of the month off, especially since i will be needing to put in serious volume in July to clear my mid-year bonus. So I'm thinking that a break (even if it is only for 2 days) will help me relax a bit and give me some extra study time. I've also planned to tighten up a bit since nothing else has worked to this point. The main thing i need to change though is the fact that if i feel like I'm not into playing i just need to not play at that time. The session where i play poorly is basically me not wanting to play but i do anyways just to get the points for the day in...huge mistake!

I've also been in kind of a funk lately. I don't really know why just feel kind of blah. I'm sure i have an idea what it has to do with but who knows. There seems to be a lot of little things that i get frustrated with and i know that adds up a little each day... Life is a silly thing, and i definitely don't want to turn into a grumpy person the older i get, but it definitely feels like that's the road I'm headed down.

I'm sure the downswing has a little do do with it, but i try and not let poker affect my moods that much, I'm usually pretty good at not showing emotion, especially with the kid around, i wouldn't want her to see her dad in a sad/unhappy mood.

Well have a good weekend everyone.

Hello everyone at tworags.com. I will be cross posting on tworags from my blog sight http://mpjm.blogspot.com/, so that's where you can find all of my previous blog posts.


Just a little about myself: I'm a Married 30 yeard old with an amazing almost 2 year old daughter. I used to play live exclusively, but when the kid arrived, my days of staying at a casino all hours of the night were up, since poker was a large part of my income I needed to make a change...so i decided to get into online poker. I had played previously online before and had moderate success, but I soon realized that live play does not=online play.


I started out by depositing $200 onto FTP in July 07, and started out at 25nl...(good bankroll management) and haven't looked back since. I've went threw a huge transition and have really become a solid player (well at least I think lol). I currently am a 12-14 tabler of 50nl with the occasional shot at 100nl also. I truly love poker and the added benefit it has of providing my family with extra income is a nice bonus also.

Happy Fathers Day everyone. I hope all the fathers out there have a wonderful day.

I'm not planning much for the day. probably just going to watch the U.S. Open, play a little cards, then smoke a really nice cigar that is in the new humidor my amazing wife got for me for Fathers Day. It's seriously the best humidor ever!

Have a wonderful day everyone.